Booze
I had just about finished college and I was really starting to gain momentum in my artistic craft and my leadership. I had built a beautiful base to a career as an artist and designer and was ready to go anywhere I needed to jump start this amazing life. I was so focused on fashion and costume design. Well…I smashed that base into pieces with alcohol. Every excuse aside, I can now clearly see it as this. I was at a turning point for deciding on a career/life path and instead of using my time productively, I decided to fill all of my free time and even make time to consume alcohol. Even though I met some cool people while on my booze filled journey, I now see that I used all that time consuming a substance that impeded on the health of my body, mind, and spirit. If alcohol is in my life, it is a main focus. I successfully kicked down the beautiful base that took me so long to build by putting my focus on the WRONG THING. Every moment I currently have, I fill with sewing, creating art, playing with children, cooking healthy food for anyone who is hungry, and enjoying nature. I haven’t drank alcohol in almost 6 years…and I have no desire to drink it either. Alcohol may have given me an escape for a moment, but it made the paths to my dreams all cloudy and made me not care about myself the way I deserve for almost a decade. I came and sat at a bar to write this…I’m currently drinking a water and a coffee. Why am I telling you this? A key part of my artistic journey is focus on forward motion and creation which is not possible in my world if I’m thinking about or consuming shots of Jameson. The best me does NOT drink alcohol…so I won’t. Back to sewing! Thanks for reading (o: -Izzy